The Feeld Guide to Celibacy
Sophie Mackintosh on the new appeal of abstention and redefining sexual autonomy
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Because acts don't always equal identity.
We live in a society that actively discourages men from exploring their sexuality with other guys. If you so much as think another man is sexually attractive, then you’re gay. If you get tipsy and make out with a dude at a club, then you must be 100% gay. If you say you were drunk or wanted to see what it would feel like, it does not matter. Everyone will assume that you’re gay, and that single act will likely follow you for the rest of your life.
Men aren’t given the privilege of being able to explore sexually with other guys without being labelled. This is pretty messed up for a few reasons. First, it contributes to homophobia. It’s why straight guys say things like ‘no homo’ or are afraid to express their emotions because they don’t want to be labelled as gay. These men overexert their masculinity to ‘prove’ they’re not into men.
Secondly, some guys don’t know if they like anything – including other men – unless they give it a shot. These guys need to kiss a dude (or maybe even have sex with one) to see if they’re into it. If they decide that they don’t like it afterwards, then obviously, they’re not gay! (If they do really like it, they still might not be gay. If they are still attracted to women too, there’s a decent chance that they’re somewhere on the bisexual spectrum).
Now I bring all of this up to acknowledge that exploring your sexuality with another man can be intimidating, but you still should do if you want to. Here are some tips for exploring your potential attraction to men:
Labels can be very helpful tools for you to embrace your sexual identity. But often, when we’re exploring, we become obsessed with them. We question, ‘Does doing this make me bi or gay? What am I now?’ When we become too focused on the label, we don’t allow ourselves to explore. We don’t permit ourselves to be present in the moment and fully experience the hookup. So go ahead and explore sexually without feeling like you need to identify as anything right away.
You may feel the need to act as if you’re more experienced than you are but don’t. I’d recommend letting your partner know that this is the first time (or one of the first times) you’ve hooked up with a dude. That way, they know to take it slowly, and you feel more comfortable during the sexual encounter.
Many men initially explore drunk because it’s the only way they can build up the courage to act on their attractions. (They also have plausible deniability the next day: ‘I’m not gay; I was just super drunk, so it doesn’t count!’) Do not explore drunk, high or anything else. You don’t want to numb the experience – you want to be able to take it all in to see if you truly like it!
You don’t need to perform every single sexual act when you first meet a guy. Start by kissing and see if you’re into it. Don’t feel pressured to have oral or anal sex the first time you meet up with another man. And if he’s pressuring you, say firmly: ‘I only feel comfortable making out.’ If he keeps pressing – even after you make your boundaries clear – then say, ‘I don’t feel comfortable. I’m going to go.’ Then get out of there. You should never feel pressured into doing anything sexually with anyone.
If you’re in an open relationship with a woman, someone you trust and know won’t judge you for exploring your sexual attraction with men, have a threesome with your female partner and another man. Having someone you trust and love during the hookup can make you feel more comfortable exploring.
You can be bi-sexual (notice the hyphen) and hetero-romantic, meaning that you’re attracted to men, women and nonbinary folks sexually but only want to date or have a romantic relationship with women. That’s totally okay! Recognising that you may only like having sex with men, but have no desire to date them, can further allow you to explore with other men.
I know I’m labouring this point, but it’s so important. One act does not define who you are sexually, your identity or, frankly, anything else about you. It’s just a single act. Nothing else. So know that you can explore with some guys, not be into it and you will still be 100% straight, my man!
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